Tuesday, July 31, 2007
Posted by Canadian flake at 9:42 PM
Monday, July 30, 2007
Gawdddddddd who created Mondays...don't they totally suck?? I mean who wants to go back to work knowing there is an entire week stretching before them ...waiting to drive them crazy..not me, that's for sure.........
As I mentioned on my last post, I have been awarded the Creative Blogger Award By Palm Springs Savant.
His blog is a really good read and I recommend it to any of you that haven't checked it out yet. He has an amazing eye for beautiful pics that he shares...and you haven't lived until you have read Dr Wang's advice...so go check it out.
Like the dedicated blog addict I am, I will now pass this award along to others...and I have given this some serious thought. If I pass this along to someone that already has it, please forgive me. I thought about checking that first, but decided to pick who I wanted to mention....if they already have it, then this will just be a bonus "kudos".....
1) dont eat the tomatoes - This blog is authored by my dear friend burfica who I love dearly. Although she has been a bit quieter the last few months due to summer holidays and entertaining a "kiddo"...she is definitely worth the wait. She has a good mix of humour and snark that makes her writings enjoyable. She turned me on to blogging in the first place...for that I owe her a great deal of thanks and my admiration.
2) dorky dad - This guy is completely hilarious. He has his wife post once a week or so and they are a great time. I always smile and giggle when reading their posts. I am fairly new to his blog, but it is among my favourites for sure.
3)momthatsnuts - This lady personifies snark. She has a tell-it-like-it-is mentality which I think is great. Her strength and intelligence shines through in her posts....and just when I think I have her figured out, she goes and posts something truly different. I really enjoy reading about her family.
4) twas brillig - This author writes about her life experiences ....she has lived a full and remarkable life, from what I can tell. Her writings transform me somewhere else when I read them...and most often, I am left hungry for more. She features SOAP OPERA SUNDAYS which I loveeeeeeee...often it is the highlight of my blogger weekend...so I give a big WTG to her.
5)JJ - I had lost the way to this gal's blog for awhile and I am glad I found my way back. I think the thing I enjoy most about this blog is when she posts about her daughter. She writes well and it takes me back to when my gremlins were that age. I can look back with fondness now...I was too stressed to enjoy that period of my life at the time, being a COMPLETELY overworked single mom with no support...so I envy her a lot.
6)shoofly - Melodyann is a take-no-prisoners kinda writer. She tells ya what she thinks and if you don't like it..well too bad. That being said...she is ABSOLUTELY hilarious and her posts always make me laugh my ass off...'nuff said!!!
It was hard for me to choice just 6...because I love you all or I wouldn't keep coming back to read.
Honorable mentions must go out to the following also -
Hammer - I am sure he already has this award and it is well deserved. In one word, his blog is amazing.
Corky - He also has already received this award (I think). He is hilarious...intelligent...has a GORGEOUS new baby boy...and best of all he is a trekkie like me...it doesn't get any better than that.
Jamie - I came across this blog last week by accident and have been a fan from the moment I started reading. This woman is one of the most inspirational people I have ever read. She has had so many bad things happen to hear and she keeps fighting. I think she is just amazing and I am a devoted reader now.
I hope you all check out some of these blogs...they are all talented writers and I find often I can't wait to read their next post.
As always, to be continued...............
Posted by Canadian flake at 2:33 PM
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Posted by Canadian flake at 10:54 PM
Saturday, July 28, 2007
WARNING : The following blog post is about to be a vent session...so don't say you weren't warned if you read on..lmao
All I want to know is WHY do some people love you so much and STILL insist on being so stupid and hurtful????
I WISH WISH WISH I had the answer to that one...I could write a book, become a millionaire and run the hell away on days like today...lol.
I am so irritated I am still shaking and of course my head is pounding from crying...did I mention that I am a crier when I get mad???
It has been one of those days that I can NOT for the life of me understand why I got out of bed....it sure as hell has not been worth the effort it took my sore, pained body to haul itself up to get moving this morning...
Sorry I am rambling...I am so irritated that my thoughts aren't really organized...but I am hurt...I feel like someone gutted me like a fish and left me in dirt...that someone being my Mom. So, of course, the gnome had to get into the act and kick me while I was down...so I screamed at the both of them and told them BOTH to fuck off...(** note to self...remember someday my gremlins may use those words on me...karma can be a bitch)....
I know I have mentioned my Mom in previous posts...I have missed her so much this last year. When we lived in my hometown, we would either see her or I would call her every day.....when we decided to move for the gnome's work, leaving her was the hardest part of going...and I still miss her as much today and I did a year ago..
We make a point of going "home" to see her every weekend...since it is only about an hour away. We load up our laundry and head to town. We could do laundry other places but I have liked having that reason to go to town and see her while we do the laundry...the gremlins look forward to it and so have I.
Today, we made our weekly trek to town and called her as soon as we got there. Lately, for some reason, she feels that it is necessary to point out all my faults...and when I call her on it she just says she is "teasing". I have told her before that it is NOT funny and it hurts me...and once I reminded her that we do not HAVE to come visit her...that we choose to but that could change if she doesn't want to cool it.
As I mentioned on my last post, I hurt myself again the other day and I am in a LOT of pain...thus making sleep next to impossible. I told my Mom this....and she said she could tell I was suffering today...but I forced myself to tough it out because I really wanted to see her...I could have gotten the gnome to do the laundry here at home, but I wanted to see her and so did the gremlins.
As we are sitting there visiting, out of the blue she says to me "why don't you let me trim your beard"... I was like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT....I almost punched her in the face....
I am 41 years old...and of course getting to that point in my life where my body doesn't much like me...but this is her idea of teasing...and maybe I shouldn't let it hurt me but it really, really did. She seems to think it is funny when she tells me I am getting old because I am starting to get grey hairs.. and btw I should mention at this point that I don't even have a "beard"..she was just being a fucking idiot...
Often I tell her to cut it out and let it just slide...but today I just couldn't. I am in so much pain it hurts to even breathe...I am running on NO sleep...and dragged my ass out of bed ONLY because I wanted to suffer through an hour's drive to see her and that is the shit I get for my trouble...so I yelled at her..and yelled good. I was just so hurt that I told her she is mean and I am NOT taking her shit.
If that wasn't enough...as we were yelling she decides to tell me that she knows I miss her but that is STUPID and I shouldn't miss her...after all someday soon she will die and then what will I do (her words not mine).
I think I have also mentioned in the past that she was not exactly Mother Theresa when we grew up. She would slap the shit out of us first...and ask questions later. It didn't matter if we were guilty or not, if she was mad we got it..and got it good. Of course, she has a selective memory now and conveniently forgets most of that....I guess it is how she sleeps at night.
Anyway, if all her shit wasn't bad enough, the gnome decides to get into the act and tell me that I am acting like a 2yr old which of course made me want to cut his balls off and stuff them down his throat. I get it...that he is sorta clueless about what I was feeling because he was blessed enough to NOT have to grow up with parents who were verbally and physically abusive...and a father that was sexually abusive and a mother that just turned a blind eye and didn't protect me.
I get that there is NO way he can understand why her stupid insults hurt me...but is it too much to expect him to support me even if he doesn't understand??? I just feel like I am all alone and no one in the world cares...today made me feel like I was 12 yrs old all over again....when they would hurt me so deeply and NO ONE cared..even when I tried to tell and get help. The difference is I am NOT 12 anymore...and I WON'T just sit and take that shit anymore...from anyone..
They can call me a bitch as much as they want...but I won't just take that anymore... I have worked really hard to forgive my mom for her past mistakes...and believe me finding forgiveness was NOT an easy thing to do...but I did because I love her and want her in my life....but today I really wonder why I even bothered!!!!
After we yelled some more, my mom and I sort of made up. I know she doesn't MEAN to hurt me...but that makes it almost worse somehow..that she can be so cruel and thoughtless and not even get why it hurts me. The gnome at least has an excuse, he IS male after all....LOL.
Well for anyone that read this...I want to thank you. It means a lot to me that you cared enough to take the time to read this. Sorry it was such a "downer"
* cue "The sun'll come out tomorrow...."
As always, to be continued............
Posted by Canadian flake at 6:05 PM
Friday, July 27, 2007
Posted by Canadian flake at 9:42 AM
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
******LANGUAGE WARNING BELOW******
I think I have worked shitty job for too many years....when these were emailed to me I was laughing my ass off and shouting AMEN... wish I could have done this to my last boss from HELL...lmao
As always, to be continued........
Posted by Canadian flake at 10:20 PM
Monday, July 23, 2007
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Sunday, July 22, 2007
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Saturday, July 21, 2007
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Wednesday, July 18, 2007
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Tuesday, July 17, 2007
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Monday, July 16, 2007
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Sunday, July 15, 2007
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Friday, July 13, 2007
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Thursday, July 12, 2007
Yes, I am thanking God it is Thursday for a multitude of reasons. The biggest reason is that in a few short hours I will be done work for the week and I can NOT wait..wooooooooohoooooo. This week has been one of those that makes me question my sanity about keeping this job. I go over it in my mind at times like this. I should be grateful that for the first time in my life I have a job where I can take weekends off....that part is GREAT....but after being called a c*nt or told to fuck off for the 20th time this week, I start to question the trade-off I have made. Anyway, I have almost survived another week, so that is good.
Another reason for celebration is that it is eviction night in the BB house. I think they screwed up this week by not putting up that Jenn . She is a TOTAL nutcase and needs a good smack upside the head (in my opinion). I will say however she does give us all something to shake our head about...lmao.
So tonight is the first eviction night. If I had my pick, I would like to see Jenn or Jessica go. I ask all the diehard BB fans out there....doesn't Jessica remind you of Holly from a few seasons ago? I think they could be sisters...lmao.
My pick for tonight's eviction is Amber. I would like to see Carol go because I don't think she is playing the game with her head. Also, Amber is a mom that actually needs the money for someone other than herself. I am not sure I like Amber but I tend to cheer for the "moms"...can't help it ,I guess it's the mom in me...lmao.
We shall see soon enough what happens...I always look forward to eviction night..lol. Maybe because it is summer and there is nothing else to watch on TV after a long night at work.
It isn't all bad, the sun has come out and the sky is nice and blue. Maybe that is a good omen. The weather forcast for the next week has also improved so maybe that means we might get to go camping...lets hope so .
Happy Thursday to all...
As always, to be continued.........
Posted by Canadian flake at 6:36 PM
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
It is summer vacation here and I have to admit the gremlins have been pretty good for the most part but today they started the ol "we're boreddddddddd Mom".. usually when I hear that I wanna smack them into tomorrow but this year it makes me feel guilt ,not anger. It was most certainly not their fault we had to move to this "hell on earth" town....and there is NOTHING to do here so we are all climbing the walls all day, then I get to work all night...which means not only are they bored but they HAVE to be quiet so I don't get fired!!! School doesn't start for another 8 weeks and I am not sure we will all make it out alive..lmao( or sane...yeah yeah I hear ya fica...*snork @ sane)
Next week the gnome is on holidays so hopefully we will have some fun and NOT spend the whole week fighting. I love that gnome more than life itself but sometimes I could smear honey on him and let some fireants at him...lmao. OK OK I admit he has to live with me and that is NO picnic...hee hee hee.
We hope to go camping if it doesn't rain. I will try to remember my digital camera and take some pics to post. I am really looking forward to it so I hope we get to go. Unlike the gnome, I don't get paid holidays so I will be working Mon and Tues nights so I don't lose the entire week of pay. I am soooooo looking forward to having those 5 days off....can't wait..woooooohooooooo.
Ok that is enough whining and ranting....I am gonna get back to my sweating now...lmao.
Have a great Tuesday all...to the badge addicts out there like me...enjoy badge day tomorrow...woooooooohoooooo.
Posted by Canadian flake at 8:40 PM
Monday, July 9, 2007
Posted by Canadian flake at 1:53 PM
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Happy Sunday all...
I hadn't posted earlier because honestly I wasn't sure what to post about. Things are slow paced today and we are all being lazy here. It is rainy and crappy outside but at least it isn't hot...lol.
I was just over reading a wonderful blog that I recommend you all check out...it is the twas brillig link on my list of favourites. She is a very talented writer I think and I am glad I stumbled across her blog.
Anyway, as is so often the case, I was reading her post and it got me reminising about my past and I was reminded of one of the most important life lessons I have ever learned. That lesson is quite simply to ALWAYS listen to your inner voice....even when it makes absolutely NO sense and everyone else tries to convince you that you need stronger meds...don't let them convince you to go against your gut.
There are 2 events in my life that stick out as reminders of this lesson to me. The first one I mentioned in brillig's post. As I have mentioned before, I am an incest survivor. When I was in highschool, the only thing that kept me sane was music. I lived for that class and joined every band or choir I came across. It was my passion and my escape from the hell I lived in. Anway, in grade 11 events in my school exposed me to a new music teacher(lets call him Mr S). Anyway, everyone took to Mr S right away. Like me, he was a trumpet player and was an alumnus of the University I dreamed of attending. He offered to help me and sorta seemed to want to take me under his wing. This would have been a dream come true, but for some reason this man made me uneasy. I don't know why, I couldn't put my finger on it ...there was just something "off" about him. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was my jaded outlook on men that caused these feelings, but they persisted. I felt that I needed to keep my distance and went out of my way to NOT be alone with this man. I only mentioned these feelings to one friend, and she thought I was just being a nutcase so I shut up after that and stayed away from him.
A few years later, Mr S was suspended for an "inappropriate" relationship with a young student. Both parties denied any wrong doing until it was discovered she was pregnant, then she folded like a house of cards. I knew he wasn't attracted to me (as there isn't much to be attracted to..lol) but I am still glad I listened to my feelings about him.
Fast forward a few years.......I managed to actually get into the school I wanted to attend. This was my dream come true but I couldn't enjoy it due to all the mental baggage I had carried along with me...but that is another story.
In my second year of classes, I had a specialized singing class I had to take. I will NEVER forget walking in the first day and seeing the teacher (we will call him Mr X). The second I saw him, I had a bad feeling in my stomach. Again I had NO idea why, but I knew that Mr X was to be feared and I couldn't trust him. As classes progressed, we had to have private sessions with him . This idea TERRIFIED me.....I just couldn't do it. I knew I was being irrational but I couldn't go. I got a doc's note the 1st time and completely bailed the 2nd time. I was so afraid of him, I was willing to fail rather than be alone with him. I did somehow manage to pass the class and was so glad to be away from him.
A few years later, his face was splashed all over the news. He had been the director of a children's choir for many years...he had built it from nothing and they received worldwide recognition. What no one knew was that he had been taking the kids to a summer camp to "train" them for years...and while he had them there he had been molesting some of them. This wasn't discovered until one of his victims ,that had grown to adulthood, killed himself. He left a suicide note and journals detailing what this predator had done to him in his childhood. After this, more victims of this sicko surfaced and thank god he was arrested.
There have been many events in my life that have taught me that we DO have an inner voice for a reason...whether it is to tell us not to walk home at night in the dark....or not to trust someone we just met...etc. The 2 cases I have mentioned may be extreme but I have learned God gave me instincts for a reason, and I listen to them as much as possible. I maybe have missed out on an opportunity or 2 in my life, but I have also been saved heartache and danger on more than one occasion. Just food for thought........
As always, to be continued..........
Posted by Canadian flake at 3:31 PM
Friday, July 6, 2007
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Thursday, July 5, 2007
Well it is summer vacation for the gremlins, and as is so often the case, they are driving me nuts.....yeah yeah burfica, I can HEAR you snickering because it isn't that far of a drive..lmao.
I think the only thing nuttier than me is the weather right now. I mean it is July people and Canada IS supposed to be warm enough this time of year to actually melt all the snow we got over the winter months. Ok well this might be a bit of an exaggeration but it is certainly unseasonably cool for this time of year. It makes sleeping nice but it has actually been cool enough that we have had to close windows at night. Now I am not really meaning to complain.....I only mention it because I feel like I have entered the twilight zone or something....lol.
Anyway, I hope all you Canadians and Americans alike had a great holiday. As always, it went wayyyyyyy to fast...lmao.
Have a great Thursday...
As always, to be continued...............
Posted by Canadian flake at 7:30 PM
Wednesday, July 4, 2007
Hope all you Americans have a great 4th of July filled with friends,family,fireworks and of course lots of FOOD..lol.
Your country has endured so much tragedy in the last decade and has always found the strength to endure and go on. As a Canadian neighbour, I have been here to support you....weep for you...and pray for you...
Have a great holiday my American buddies...lots of love sent to you from Canada
As always,to be continued.....................
Posted by Canadian flake at 8:58 AM
Tuesday, July 3, 2007
Hope you are all having a great week...things have been a bit nuts here with the holiday..I will post more about that tomorrow..just wanted to post this joke. It made my old ass giggle so thought I would pass it along for all you old (and young) foggies out there..lmao.
HAVE YOU EVER BEEN GUILTY OF LOOKING AT OTHERS YOUR OWN AGE AND THINKING, "SURELY I CAN'T LOOK THAT OLD?" WELL... YOU'LL LOVE THIS TALE FROM A WOMAN!!
I WAS SITTING IN THE WAITING ROOM FOR MY FIRST APPOINTMENT WITH A NEW DENTIST. I NOTICED HIS DDS DIPLOMA, WHICH BORE HIS FULL NAME.
SUDDENLY, I REMEMBERED A TALL, HANDSOME, DARK-HAIRED BOY WITH THE SAME NAME HAD BEEN IN MY HIGH SCHOOL CLASS NEARLY 30 YEARS AGO. COULD HE BE THE SAME GUY THAT I HAD A SECRET CRUSH ON, WAY BACK THEN?
UPON SEEING HIM, HOWEVER, I QUICKLY DISCARDED ANY SUCH THOUGHT. THIS BALDING, GRAY-HAIRED MAN WITH THE DEEPLY LINED FACE WAS WAY TOO OLD TO HAVE BEEN MY CLASSMATE.
AFTER HE EXAMINED MY TEETH, I ASKED HIM IF HE HAD ATTENDED MORGAN PARK HIGH SCHOOL.
"YES. YES, I DID. I'M A MUSTANG," HE GLEAMED WITH PRIDE.
"WHEN DID YOU GRADUATE?" I ASKED.
HE ANSWERED, "IN 1978. WHY DO YOU ASK?"
"YOU WERE IN MY CLASS!" I EXCLAIMED.
HE LOOKED AT ME CLOSELY. THEN, THAT UGLY, OLD, WRINKLED, BALD, FAT, GRAY, DECREPIT SON-OF-A-BITCH ASKED,
"WHAT DID YOU TEACH?"
Have a great holiday everyone...
As always, to be continued................
Posted by Canadian flake at 10:39 PM
Sunday, July 1, 2007
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