Tuesday, July 31, 2007


Man ohhhhhhhh man it is hot hot hot... summer and all that wonderful humidity we normally have in this area have finally decided to appear...I can handle the heat but the humidity just sucks the inners right outta me...does that mean I am now old??? (DON'T answer that burfica...lmao).

I finished work a little early tonight so thought I would pop in and thank you all again for your kind words from my last few posts. It means so much more than you will ever know.
I am getting off soon to go watch big brother. I have been looking forward to it all day,especially after Jamie teased me a bit about what she saw in her live feed (did I mention I am soooooo jealous??? LOL). Big brother tonight....and tomorrow is badge day...it doesn't get much better than that..lol.
I will try to come up with something inspirational to post tomorrow...or at least a little less boring...lmao.
Have a great Tuesday night ev1.............
As always, to be continued..............

Monday, July 30, 2007


Gawdddddddd who created Mondays...don't they totally suck?? I mean who wants to go back to work knowing there is an entire week stretching before them ...waiting to drive them crazy..not me, that's for sure.........

As I mentioned on my last post, I have been awarded the Creative Blogger Award By Palm Springs Savant.

His blog is a really good read and I recommend it to any of you that haven't checked it out yet. He has an amazing eye for beautiful pics that he shares...and you haven't lived until you have read Dr Wang's advice...so go check it out.

Like the dedicated blog addict I am, I will now pass this award along to others...and I have given this some serious thought. If I pass this along to someone that already has it, please forgive me. I thought about checking that first, but decided to pick who I wanted to mention....if they already have it, then this will just be a bonus "kudos".....

1) dont eat the tomatoes - This blog is authored by my dear friend burfica who I love dearly. Although she has been a bit quieter the last few months due to summer holidays and entertaining a "kiddo"...she is definitely worth the wait. She has a good mix of humour and snark that makes her writings enjoyable. She turned me on to blogging in the first place...for that I owe her a great deal of thanks and my admiration.

2) dorky dad - This guy is completely hilarious. He has his wife post once a week or so and they are a great time. I always smile and giggle when reading their posts. I am fairly new to his blog, but it is among my favourites for sure.

3)momthatsnuts - This lady personifies snark. She has a tell-it-like-it-is mentality which I think is great. Her strength and intelligence shines through in her posts....and just when I think I have her figured out, she goes and posts something truly different. I really enjoy reading about her family.

4) twas brillig - This author writes about her life experiences ....she has lived a full and remarkable life, from what I can tell. Her writings transform me somewhere else when I read them...and most often, I am left hungry for more. She features SOAP OPERA SUNDAYS which I loveeeeeeee...often it is the highlight of my blogger weekend...so I give a big WTG to her.

5)JJ - I had lost the way to this gal's blog for awhile and I am glad I found my way back. I think the thing I enjoy most about this blog is when she posts about her daughter. She writes well and it takes me back to when my gremlins were that age. I can look back with fondness now...I was too stressed to enjoy that period of my life at the time, being a COMPLETELY overworked single mom with no support...so I envy her a lot.

6)shoofly - Melodyann is a take-no-prisoners kinda writer. She tells ya what she thinks and if you don't like it..well too bad. That being said...she is ABSOLUTELY hilarious and her posts always make me laugh my ass off...'nuff said!!!

It was hard for me to choice just 6...because I love you all or I wouldn't keep coming back to read.

Honorable mentions must go out to the following also -

Hammer - I am sure he already has this award and it is well deserved. In one word, his blog is amazing.

Corky - He also has already received this award (I think). He is hilarious...intelligent...has a GORGEOUS new baby boy...and best of all he is a trekkie like me...it doesn't get any better than that.

Jamie - I came across this blog last week by accident and have been a fan from the moment I started reading. This woman is one of the most inspirational people I have ever read. She has had so many bad things happen to hear and she keeps fighting. I think she is just amazing and I am a devoted reader now.

I hope you all check out some of these blogs...they are all talented writers and I find often I can't wait to read their next post.

As always, to be continued...............

Sunday, July 29, 2007


I want to start this post by thanking everyone who took the time to read and comment on my last post. Your comments lifted my spirits and touched me deeply. After having such a crappy day, just knowing there were people who cared enough to read my ramblings.. has touched me more than you will ever know. I am so thankful to Burfica for turning me on to the world of blogging....it has enriched my life in ways that I hadn't expected... Yesterday I felt alone and broken and today I feel blessed and very lucky...so a big thanks to you all..

Today was most definitely a better day...the gnome took me and the gremlins out for a day of shopping and then we went to see a movie called "No Reservations". I have wanted to see it and we all enjoyed it. It wasn't quite what I expected, but it was good just the same.

As we drove home, the sun was shining but it was getting late enough in the day that the oppressive humidity was breaking for the evening (thankfully). I had the window down....the sun was shining on my face while the breeze cooled me...and all I could think was okkkk life is good. It was just one of those moments that you just don't want to end...ever!! I could sit there and think yeah ok sometimes things really suck...but ya can't sweat the small stuff so just sit back and enjoy this feeling......it was a good day for sure.

When I came home...I was relaxing and playing some games on line....I decided to pop in and check on my blog and there was a message from Palm Springs Savant that he had given my blog this award :

I am not only pleasantly surprised but honestly a little shocked. I started this blog at the urging of Burfica and have come to depend on it to vent...and use as a sounding board. I have been so blessed to find some really wonderful and remarkable bloggers and I think you are all amazing. You entertain me...make me laugh (even on a really terrible day)...and you all inspire me. I have seen these awards given out on other blogs and never expected anyone to think this rambling I call a blog worthy of such a thing.

To PS Savant, I say THANK YOU !! To everyone that reads my blog and allows me to enjoy theirs...I also say thank you.. you really are a wonderful bunch of people. I will pass this award along tomorrow...once I have given it some thought. It will be hard to choose because I think you are all fantastic..

Y'all come back now ya hear...(insert country hick drawl here)

As always, to be continued........................

Saturday, July 28, 2007


WARNING : The following blog post is about to be a vent session...so don't say you weren't warned if you read on..lmao

All I want to know is WHY do some people love you so much and STILL insist on being so stupid and hurtful????

I WISH WISH WISH I had the answer to that one...I could write a book, become a millionaire and run the hell away on days like today...lol.

I am so irritated I am still shaking and of course my head is pounding from crying...did I mention that I am a crier when I get mad???

It has been one of those days that I can NOT for the life of me understand why I got out of bed....it sure as hell has not been worth the effort it took my sore, pained body to haul itself up to get moving this morning...

Sorry I am rambling...I am so irritated that my thoughts aren't really organized...but I am hurt...I feel like someone gutted me like a fish and left me in dirt...that someone being my Mom. So, of course, the gnome had to get into the act and kick me while I was down...so I screamed at the both of them and told them BOTH to fuck off...(** note to self...remember someday my gremlins may use those words on me...karma can be a bitch)....

I know I have mentioned my Mom in previous posts...I have missed her so much this last year. When we lived in my hometown, we would either see her or I would call her every day.....when we decided to move for the gnome's work, leaving her was the hardest part of going...and I still miss her as much today and I did a year ago..

We make a point of going "home" to see her every weekend...since it is only about an hour away. We load up our laundry and head to town. We could do laundry other places but I have liked having that reason to go to town and see her while we do the laundry...the gremlins look forward to it and so have I.

Today, we made our weekly trek to town and called her as soon as we got there. Lately, for some reason, she feels that it is necessary to point out all my faults...and when I call her on it she just says she is "teasing". I have told her before that it is NOT funny and it hurts me...and once I reminded her that we do not HAVE to come visit her...that we choose to but that could change if she doesn't want to cool it.

As I mentioned on my last post, I hurt myself again the other day and I am in a LOT of pain...thus making sleep next to impossible. I told my Mom this....and she said she could tell I was suffering today...but I forced myself to tough it out because I really wanted to see her...I could have gotten the gnome to do the laundry here at home, but I wanted to see her and so did the gremlins.

As we are sitting there visiting, out of the blue she says to me "why don't you let me trim your beard"... I was like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT....I almost punched her in the face....

I am 41 years old...and of course getting to that point in my life where my body doesn't much like me...but this is her idea of teasing...and maybe I shouldn't let it hurt me but it really, really did. She seems to think it is funny when she tells me I am getting old because I am starting to get grey hairs.. and btw I should mention at this point that I don't even have a "beard"..she was just being a fucking idiot...

Often I tell her to cut it out and let it just slide...but today I just couldn't. I am in so much pain it hurts to even breathe...I am running on NO sleep...and dragged my ass out of bed ONLY because I wanted to suffer through an hour's drive to see her and that is the shit I get for my trouble...so I yelled at her..and yelled good. I was just so hurt that I told her she is mean and I am NOT taking her shit.

If that wasn't enough...as we were yelling she decides to tell me that she knows I miss her but that is STUPID and I shouldn't miss her...after all someday soon she will die and then what will I do (her words not mine).

I think I have also mentioned in the past that she was not exactly Mother Theresa when we grew up. She would slap the shit out of us first...and ask questions later. It didn't matter if we were guilty or not, if she was mad we got it..and got it good. Of course, she has a selective memory now and conveniently forgets most of that....I guess it is how she sleeps at night.

Anyway, if all her shit wasn't bad enough, the gnome decides to get into the act and tell me that I am acting like a 2yr old which of course made me want to cut his balls off and stuff them down his throat. I get it...that he is sorta clueless about what I was feeling because he was blessed enough to NOT have to grow up with parents who were verbally and physically abusive...and a father that was sexually abusive and a mother that just turned a blind eye and didn't protect me.

I get that there is NO way he can understand why her stupid insults hurt me...but is it too much to expect him to support me even if he doesn't understand??? I just feel like I am all alone and no one in the world cares...today made me feel like I was 12 yrs old all over again....when they would hurt me so deeply and NO ONE cared..even when I tried to tell and get help. The difference is I am NOT 12 anymore...and I WON'T just sit and take that shit anymore...from anyone..

They can call me a bitch as much as they want...but I won't just take that anymore... I have worked really hard to forgive my mom for her past mistakes...and believe me finding forgiveness was NOT an easy thing to do...but I did because I love her and want her in my life....but today I really wonder why I even bothered!!!!

After we yelled some more, my mom and I sort of made up. I know she doesn't MEAN to hurt me...but that makes it almost worse somehow..that she can be so cruel and thoughtless and not even get why it hurts me. The gnome at least has an excuse, he IS male after all....LOL.

Well for anyone that read this...I want to thank you. It means a lot to me that you cared enough to take the time to read this. Sorry it was such a "downer"

* cue "The sun'll come out tomorrow...."

As always, to be continued............

Friday, July 27, 2007


Well people we have reached another BB Friday...where does the time go....It is hard to believe there have already been 3 evictions and I think this one was the most shocking so far.
Once again all I can say is WHAT THE HELL WERE THEY THINKING.... I think this one will come back to bite them in the ass...lol.
They all said they evicted Mike because he is such a strong player...well I guess they have all lived under a rock and not bothered to watch any of the previous seasons.

As a devoted BB fan I have watched them all since the beginning. It has been my experience that the players that go far in this game are the ones that are sneaky, slimy and lie ....the ones that continue to look ya straight in the eye and continue to lie even when they KNOW they are busted...well DUHHHHHHH sound like Kail maybe???? LOL. I think they will regret not getting rid of her when they had the chance...time will tell ,as it always does.

On a side not...did I mention it is FRIDAY??? woooohoooooo. Because I work nights, the trade off I make is that I don't work Friday unless absolutely necessary...gotta loveeeee those 3 day weekends. This is the first time in the 29 years I have worked that I have a job where I don't work every weekend and I am LOVINGGGGGGGG it....hate the job, but love weekends..lol.

Gremlin #2 was a total shithead yesterday and I do NOT know how he is still breathing!! It was his job to do the vacuuming and he did a totally shitty job. I yapped at him and made him do it again while I watched this time...and he didn't do any better the second time. I got totally irritated..sent him to his room and started to vacuum myself.

Anyone who has ever had an umbilical hyernia before knows that vacuuming it a total NO NO....so of course my temper tantrum has now caused me to be in a great deal of pain today. I have been up suffering since 5:30am...even broke down and got into the pain meds which I try really hard not to (since it IS a morphine derivative).

Anyway, I am going back to lay down and rest...I have no one to blame for this pain but myself. I KNEW I was doing the wrong thing and my temper got the better of me...when will I ever learn...ughhhhhh.

Have a great Friday all....

As always, to be continued.....................

Wednesday, July 25, 2007



I think I have worked shitty job for too many years....when these were emailed to me I was laughing my ass off and shouting AMEN... wish I could have done this to my last boss from HELL...lmao

As always, to be continued........

Monday, July 23, 2007


These were sent to me by a friend.. I thought they were sorta different (for lack of a better word)....

As always, to be continued..............

Sunday, July 22, 2007


Another week of holidays comes and goes......

It is hard to believe that the last week has flown by...and I have hardly had time to sit down and post, mostly because I have had to fight off the gnome for any computer time at all...

My apologizes to all for my last post....blogger has decided to be a butthead and turned off my comments although I don't know why....I fixed it this morning and have missed your comments and cracks on Big Brother or life in general.

It has been a lazy weekend to end our holidays. Last night we took the kids to see a movie. We went to see "I know pronounce you Larry and Chuck". It was a funny movie but I have to admit I would have enjoyed it a bit more if the gremlins hadn't been with me. The humour was a bit over their heads but it was funny still the same. Other than that, the highlight of the weekend has been listening to the gnome swear at the TV while watching the British Open.

We are all looking forward to another episode of BB tonight. I can't wait to see who Evil Dick puts up for eviction...although I will be stunned if Jenn and Kail aren't on the block... I guess we shall see.....
Back to the grind tomorrow...blahhhhh blahhhhhhh
As always, to be continued..............

Saturday, July 21, 2007


Well kiddies...it is Big Brother friday again...although I must apologize that I am actually about 16 minutes into Saturday now..lol.

First, let me thank you all for the well wishes for our camping trip. We unfortunately got rained out for our second evening, but we had a great time the first night. We had a camp fire...cooked hotdogs and marshmallows over the fire...and just chilled out (while getting eaten by mosquitos..lol). The funny thing was when we got to the campground ,that is about 90 minutes from home, we got our campsite and who should be on the next site but a very nice man the gnome works with. It was nice to see him and his wife but we thought it was funny that we should end up in the same place, at the same time...and NO it wasn't planned...lol. It was lucky they were there because we couldn't get our fire to get going and they came over and saved the day AND our dinner...lol.

We woke up at 5am the next morning to rain. It wasn't too bad and stopped by about 7am. Our tents still seemed dry inside so we were trying to hang in there , hoping things would improve. By about 8am, it started to rain again....harder this time, along with some thunder and lightning, so we knew it was time to pack up and head home. We all hated to leave, but we definitely made the right call because it didn't stop raining until tonight at about 6pm....we would have floated away if we had stayed...lmao.

OK...now to BB Friday.....

All I can say about last night's show is OMFGGGGGGG...

The gnome and I were talking about what we thought would happen... I told him that I thought it would be hilarious if Joe got evicted then Dick won HOH. When this actually DID happen, I laughed my ass off. This turn of events should make for an interesting week in that house. That Kail is such a total bitch and omg am I the only one that wants to bitch slap that Jenn?? If I see one more of those t-shirts with her name on it, I might just have to hurl...lol. Anyway, I am assuming Dick will nominate Kail and Jenn...since he has had battles with both of them already...

My thoughts are that Kail should go...because I think she is more of a "player" and Jenn will self destruct soon enough anyway..lol. I guess we will see what happens soon enough...I will be watching with anticipation......lmao.

As always, to be continued........

Wednesday, July 18, 2007


Well we are off. Wish us luck because the weather isn't sounding too promising...lol. Hopefully I will be back Friday night but if it rains, I will be home sooner....camping in tents and rain just don't mix...lmao..Take care ev1 ...see ya soon......

As always, to be continued.........

Tuesday, July 17, 2007


Most of these I have seen before...a friend emailed them to me and I thought "oh yeah baby soooooo true...lol"

Monday, July 16, 2007


These struck me as odd ..and funny in some cases...so I thought I would share them...enjoy...lmao.

As always, to be continued........

Sunday, July 15, 2007


Well everyone seems to have survived another weekend , thank god!!! Believe me I AM thanking God. This was one of those weekends that I hate...the gremlins went to spend it with their FHLFF (fuckhead loser fatass father) and I am always glad to get them home. It is hard to send them because I know they love him and want to spend time with him....but I also know that he and his bitch gf mistreat the gremlins...half the time they don't even feed them which of course pisses me off to no end and in the past there has been violence and threats.

When I have to have any dealings with him at all, it really makes me think about things...like why good men have to die when he is allowed to continue to breathe...it just makes no sense....

Anyway, thankfully they survived and are home to drive me crazy, just like they are meant to do...lmao.

On a side note, I was reading an article in the paper today about 2 teenage boys that were arrested in Long Island area for planning a school shooting to rival that of Columbine. It makes me shake my head and wonder....will it ever end??? I was glad to see they caught them before they could carry out their plans.

The gnome is on holidays for the week and hopefully the weather holds so we can go camping for a few days. My posting might be irregular this week...after all, I will be fighting for computer time with 2 gremlins AND a gnome...that isn't always easy....

Have a great week all...will be back as much as possible...

As always, to be continued..................

Friday, July 13, 2007


As I said last week, it is my intent to throw in my two cents about Big Brother eviction night each Friday.

Last night was the first eviction night and I think it proved that they made a mistake not putting Jenn up on the block. She is whiny and COMPLETELY irritating and now she is HOH.

I was a bit surprised to see Carol evicted last night. I wanted her to go but I seriously thought they would kick out Amber. Honestly I don't think Amber is much better than Jenn. I mean all she has done is cry all week, since they nominated her for eviction. She needs someone to remind her that it IS a game and she knew what she was getting in to when she signed on for this gig. She would have to have been living under a rock to not at least have heard of previous Big Brother seasons. More than once this past week, I have wanted to scream and her and tell her to get her ass out of her head...ok dingdong you are nominated...instead of crying start PLAYING...duhhhhhhh.

Am I the only one that thinks this "america's player" thing is a bad idea?? Sure it is funny at the beginning....but don't ya think it might bite him in the ass when they are down to 6 players , there is a majority about who to evict and he goes against the group because America wants to evict someone else?? Doesn't sound like a successful way to play the game...I guess we will see how it pans out...lol.

Well I am looking forward to seeing who Ms WhinyPants nominates on Sunday. Any wagers one of them will be Dick?? lol. Stay tuned sports fans....

As always, to be continued.............

Thursday, July 12, 2007


Yes, I am thanking God it is Thursday for a multitude of reasons. The biggest reason is that in a few short hours I will be done work for the week and I can NOT wait..wooooooooohoooooo. This week has been one of those that makes me question my sanity about keeping this job. I go over it in my mind at times like this. I should be grateful that for the first time in my life I have a job where I can take weekends off....that part is GREAT....but after being called a c*nt or told to fuck off for the 20th time this week, I start to question the trade-off I have made. Anyway, I have almost survived another week, so that is good.

Another reason for celebration is that it is eviction night in the BB house. I think they screwed up this week by not putting up that Jenn . She is a TOTAL nutcase and needs a good smack upside the head (in my opinion). I will say however she does give us all something to shake our head about...lmao.

So tonight is the first eviction night. If I had my pick, I would like to see Jenn or Jessica go. I ask all the diehard BB fans out there....doesn't Jessica remind you of Holly from a few seasons ago? I think they could be sisters...lmao.

My pick for tonight's eviction is Amber. I would like to see Carol go because I don't think she is playing the game with her head. Also, Amber is a mom that actually needs the money for someone other than herself. I am not sure I like Amber but I tend to cheer for the "moms"...can't help it ,I guess it's the mom in me...lmao.

We shall see soon enough what happens...I always look forward to eviction night..lol. Maybe because it is summer and there is nothing else to watch on TV after a long night at work.

It isn't all bad, the sun has come out and the sky is nice and blue. Maybe that is a good omen. The weather forcast for the next week has also improved so maybe that means we might get to go camping...lets hope so .

Happy Thursday to all...

As always, to be continued.........

Tuesday, July 10, 2007


OKKKK I have to ask...and I think I have asked this before...am I the only one that sometimes has the impulse to run away??? I mean it is a million degrees here right now and because of my work conditions, I have to have the windows closed while I work (which doesn't really cool things off....lmao).

It is summer vacation here and I have to admit the gremlins have been pretty good for the most part but today they started the ol "we're boreddddddddd Mom".. usually when I hear that I wanna smack them into tomorrow but this year it makes me feel guilt ,not anger. It was most certainly not their fault we had to move to this "hell on earth" town....and there is NOTHING to do here so we are all climbing the walls all day, then I get to work all night...which means not only are they bored but they HAVE to be quiet so I don't get fired!!! School doesn't start for another 8 weeks and I am not sure we will all make it out alive..lmao( or sane...yeah yeah I hear ya fica...*snork @ sane)

Next week the gnome is on holidays so hopefully we will have some fun and NOT spend the whole week fighting. I love that gnome more than life itself but sometimes I could smear honey on him and let some fireants at him...lmao. OK OK I admit he has to live with me and that is NO picnic...hee hee hee.

We hope to go camping if it doesn't rain. I will try to remember my digital camera and take some pics to post. I am really looking forward to it so I hope we get to go. Unlike the gnome, I don't get paid holidays so I will be working Mon and Tues nights so I don't lose the entire week of pay. I am soooooo looking forward to having those 5 days off....can't wait..woooooohooooooo.

Ok that is enough whining and ranting....I am gonna get back to my sweating now...lmao.

Have a great Tuesday all...to the badge addicts out there like me...enjoy badge day tomorrow...woooooooohoooooo.

Monday, July 9, 2007


For some reason, I found this joke funny. I guess it is because I am getting old ....lmao. Or is it just my sick sense of humour? roflmao....

Two very elderly friends, Max and Wally, met in the park every day to feed the pigeons, watch the squirrels and discuss world problems.

One day Wally didn't show up, Max didn't think much about it, figured maybe he had a cold or some such. But after Wally hadn't shown up for a week or so Max really got worried. However, the only time they ever got together anymore (they used to play a lot of golf together) was at the park, and Max couldn't remember where Wally lived so he was unable to find out what had happened to him.

A month passed and Max figured old Wally had gone to his heavenly reward, but one day Max approached the park and, lo and behold, there sat Wally!

Max was very excited and happy to see him and told him so!

Then he said, "For crying out loud Wally, what happened to you???"

Wally replied, "I have been in jail."

"Jail???," cried Max!! "What in the world for???"

"Well," Wally said, "You know Sue, that cute little blonde waitress at the coffee shop where we sometimes get coffee?"

"Yeah" said Max, "I remember her. What about her?"

"Well one day last month she got mad at me and to get even, she charged me with rape. I was so proud of what everyone would think an old coot like me could still do, that when I got into court, I pleaded 'Guilty'.

The judge then took a good look at me and gave me 30 days for perjury."

Sunday, July 8, 2007


Happy Sunday all...

I hadn't posted earlier because honestly I wasn't sure what to post about. Things are slow paced today and we are all being lazy here. It is rainy and crappy outside but at least it isn't hot...lol.

I was just over reading a wonderful blog that I recommend you all check out...it is the twas brillig link on my list of favourites. She is a very talented writer I think and I am glad I stumbled across her blog.

Anyway, as is so often the case, I was reading her post and it got me reminising about my past and I was reminded of one of the most important life lessons I have ever learned. That lesson is quite simply to ALWAYS listen to your inner voice....even when it makes absolutely NO sense and everyone else tries to convince you that you need stronger meds...don't let them convince you to go against your gut.

There are 2 events in my life that stick out as reminders of this lesson to me. The first one I mentioned in brillig's post. As I have mentioned before, I am an incest survivor. When I was in highschool, the only thing that kept me sane was music. I lived for that class and joined every band or choir I came across. It was my passion and my escape from the hell I lived in. Anway, in grade 11 events in my school exposed me to a new music teacher(lets call him Mr S). Anyway, everyone took to Mr S right away. Like me, he was a trumpet player and was an alumnus of the University I dreamed of attending. He offered to help me and sorta seemed to want to take me under his wing. This would have been a dream come true, but for some reason this man made me uneasy. I don't know why, I couldn't put my finger on it ...there was just something "off" about him. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was my jaded outlook on men that caused these feelings, but they persisted. I felt that I needed to keep my distance and went out of my way to NOT be alone with this man. I only mentioned these feelings to one friend, and she thought I was just being a nutcase so I shut up after that and stayed away from him.
A few years later, Mr S was suspended for an "inappropriate" relationship with a young student. Both parties denied any wrong doing until it was discovered she was pregnant, then she folded like a house of cards. I knew he wasn't attracted to me (as there isn't much to be attracted to..lol) but I am still glad I listened to my feelings about him.

Fast forward a few years.......I managed to actually get into the school I wanted to attend. This was my dream come true but I couldn't enjoy it due to all the mental baggage I had carried along with me...but that is another story.

In my second year of classes, I had a specialized singing class I had to take. I will NEVER forget walking in the first day and seeing the teacher (we will call him Mr X). The second I saw him, I had a bad feeling in my stomach. Again I had NO idea why, but I knew that Mr X was to be feared and I couldn't trust him. As classes progressed, we had to have private sessions with him . This idea TERRIFIED me.....I just couldn't do it. I knew I was being irrational but I couldn't go. I got a doc's note the 1st time and completely bailed the 2nd time. I was so afraid of him, I was willing to fail rather than be alone with him. I did somehow manage to pass the class and was so glad to be away from him.
A few years later, his face was splashed all over the news. He had been the director of a children's choir for many years...he had built it from nothing and they received worldwide recognition. What no one knew was that he had been taking the kids to a summer camp to "train" them for years...and while he had them there he had been molesting some of them. This wasn't discovered until one of his victims ,that had grown to adulthood, killed himself. He left a suicide note and journals detailing what this predator had done to him in his childhood. After this, more victims of this sicko surfaced and thank god he was arrested.

There have been many events in my life that have taught me that we DO have an inner voice for a reason...whether it is to tell us not to walk home at night in the dark....or not to trust someone we just met...etc. The 2 cases I have mentioned may be extreme but I have learned God gave me instincts for a reason, and I listen to them as much as possible. I maybe have missed out on an opportunity or 2 in my life, but I have also been saved heartache and danger on more than one occasion. Just food for thought........

As always, to be continued..........

Friday, July 6, 2007


In our home we have been anxiously awaiting the new season of Big Brother. We all love this show and watch it with great interest and varying opinions about who should win/ be evicted. It might have something to do with the fact that there is NOTHING on TV this time of year but each summer we look forward to BB.

My plan is to post my opinions and thoughts about BB every Friday after Thursday night's eviction show. I tell you this now, so those of you that hate the show or are bored by this idea will know to ignore my blog for the next few months on Fridays....lmao. For any BB fans out there reading this, I invite your thoughts and opinions on the current houseguests.

I was antsy to finish work last night so I could watch the first episode and CBS didn't disappoint. For the record, my pick to go far this summer is the pro football player named Nick. I think he will work his looks and win the hearts of some of the ladies in the house. Only time will tell I guess. I thought it was really shitty of CBS to bring in the father of Danielle. I understand they wanted enemies in the house to add some controversy and drama but that is hitting below the belt in my mind. Bring in an ex lover ......or an old friend that is pissed because you screwed her boyfriend......but bringing in a father that you haven't talked to in over 2 yrs is pretty sucky in my eyes. At this point, I will admit that I am jaded in this particular area since I would be happy if my father jumped off a cliff...but I am babbling...sorry about that...lmao.

Anyway, I look forward to another summer filled with lies, deceit and goofy head-of-household challenges. I would love to spend the summer in the BB house.....at least they have a pool and I don't mind PB & J sandwiches..lmao...

As always, to be continued.......................

Thursday, July 5, 2007


Well it is summer vacation for the gremlins, and as is so often the case, they are driving me nuts.....yeah yeah burfica, I can HEAR you snickering because it isn't that far of a drive..lmao.

I think the only thing nuttier than me is the weather right now. I mean it is July people and Canada IS supposed to be warm enough this time of year to actually melt all the snow we got over the winter months. Ok well this might be a bit of an exaggeration but it is certainly unseasonably cool for this time of year. It makes sleeping nice but it has actually been cool enough that we have had to close windows at night. Now I am not really meaning to complain.....I only mention it because I feel like I have entered the twilight zone or something....lol.

Anyway, I hope all you Canadians and Americans alike had a great holiday. As always, it went wayyyyyyy to fast...lmao.

Have a great Thursday...

As always, to be continued...............

Wednesday, July 4, 2007


Hope all you Americans have a great 4th of July filled with friends,family,fireworks and of course lots of FOOD..lol.

Your country has endured so much tragedy in the last decade and has always found the strength to endure and go on. As a Canadian neighbour, I have been here to support you....weep for you...and pray for you...

Have a great holiday my American buddies...lots of love sent to you from Canada

As always,to be continued.....................

Tuesday, July 3, 2007


Hope you are all having a great week...things have been a bit nuts here with the holiday..I will post more about that tomorrow..just wanted to post this joke. It made my old ass giggle so thought I would pass it along for all you old (and young) foggies out there..lmao.












Have a great holiday everyone...

As always, to be continued................

Sunday, July 1, 2007


Happy Birthday Canada, ya don't look a day over 100 girlfriend...lmao.

Today is our country's birthday so there will be the normal festivities going on. The gremlins are excited because they are going to be in the town parade today. The gnome's work decided to enter a float this year so the gnome and gremlins are going to be on it. My job is to stand on the sidelines and cheer loudly as they go by. I have promised to take lots of pictures and if any of them are worth seeing, I will post a few of them here....although I wouldn't hold your breathe, I am not a very good photographer.

Some of the other events of the weekend have included a trip to the nearest drive-in last night. I have been trying to keep the gremlins entertained this weekend because they were SUPPOSED to be gone with their FH father (for the new readers fh=fuckhead). Of course, the loser has let them down again, but that is another post..lol.

So the movie we saw last night was Evan Almighty. I thought it looked pretty stupid but it was actually pretty good and we all enjoyed it. The second movie was called Knocked Up. It was a comedy rated A so we thought it would be ok for the gremlins too. What I saw of it was ok, but I tell ya I had a bit of a giggle when the 2 main characters started having sex and it didn't leave a whole lot to the imagination...lmao.

I have talked to both gremlins about sex. I have talked to #1 about it quite a bit (since she is 15) thinking that if I talk about it now, she will be able to come to me when SHE needs to talk about it...I hope so anyway. But it is different to be watching it happen with them sitting there and #2 going ewwww grosssssss Mom..lmaoooo.

Anyway, it was shortly after that the Gnome suggested we just leave and go home. I wanted to stay, thinking it would get better but I think it was making him uncomfortable. I didn't suggest staying because the drive home was about 90 minutes and I knew he was getting tired. We were all still glad we went, the first movie was worth the trip.

We are hoping to go to a pool that isn't too far away for a swim tomorrow. I have missed swimming but we don't get to go very often because it is VERY expensive and we simply can't afford it. But again, we are trying to give the gremlins things to look forward to, mostly to save my sanity....lol.

We haven't even finished the first full week of summer vacation...will my sanity make it?? The jury is still out on that one...lmao.

Have a great Sunday all..and HAPPY BIRTHDAY CANADA...

As always, to be continued.............................