MY FAVOURITE "T" THINGS

this is a meme of sorts that I read on sunshine's blog. I thought it was cool so I asked her for a letter so I could do it also. The challenge is a simple one : you are given a letter and you list your 10 favourite things starting with that letter. I have put alot of thought into my list so here it is. Hope it doesn't sound dumb..lol.

1) TRUST : This is definitely at the top of my list. I have been abused, lied to and mistreated by people in my life that were supposed to love and protect me so trust is a biggy for me and not easily earned by me.

2) TALKING : This may seem like an odd addition,but the last year has really reminded me how important it is to talk...to be able to express your emotions and thoughts. I have spent this past year alone and isolated in a town with no friends and only the gnome and gremlins for family. For me, it has not been an easy experience and more than once, the TELEPHONE has gotten me through a rough day.

3) THUNDERSTORMS : I love a good thunderstorm. As long as the gnome and gremlins are safe, I am happy to sit back and just watch the storm. I love the smell of rain and find it relaxing. I just sit and watch the storm wear itself out and move on.

4) TELEVISION: This dear godsend has saved the lives of the gremlins more than once. Being a single mom for 8 years, if I hadn't had Barney for them to watch I would have had to flush them down the TIOLET..lol. Some of my favourite shows are Survivor,Dog the Bounty Hunter, ER and omggggg I can't wait for the new season of Big Brother to start..woooooohooo.

5) TAKEOUT FOOD: really what list of favourites would be complete without some junkfood on it...lol. In my case, this would include tacos and toasted BLT sandwiches. My favourite would be a taco salad from Wendy's. (Actually it is a burger from Harveys but that didn't start with T ..lmao)

6) TALENT : I think people who have a special talent are very lucky. I am one of those people who are an "ordinary joe" at everything I do, not talented at any one thing. I think being a good and patient parent is a talent but that surely isn't me. I love my gremlins more than life itself, but I really should be more patient with them.

7) TEASING : Ok I am admit, this is sort of an "R" rated addition but come onnnnnn...when done properly, this can be very nice (hee hee hee). The gnome is a very talented 5 pin bowler. I know that isn't big down there in the states . When I watch his TAILEND as he bowls, well...whewwwwwww enough said..lmao. I make NO secret to him how much I enjoy and appreciate the view..lmao.

8) TUNES : Music has always been an important part of my life. It literally kept me sane thoughout the hell that was my childhood. I have tried to pass along this love of "tunes" to my gremlins and have sang to them from the day they were born. Of course, there is the other kind of tunes, as in LOONEY tunes. This one is oddly fitting for my household..roflmao.

9) TAFFY : When I was young, in the winter we would go to this place not too far from home. The people there would take sap that was hot and really sweet and pour it over the snow. As it cooled and solidified, we would pull it ( like a big tug of war). It was sticky and gooey and ohhhh so good. As an added bonus, it was one of the few times we could play with our food and not get yelled at..lmao.

10) TEA : My list is completed with a nice hot cup of tea. I find it soothing and almost medicinal. I love to sit and sip a cup of tea after a stressful shift at work. Of course, there are better stress relievers but I can have the tea without worrying about what the gremlins are up to..hee hee hee.

Well there ya have it....my list of T favourites. I hope this wasn't too boring for you to read. If anyone wants a tag for this, just let me know and I will send you a letter. I will look forward to reading them too.
Have a great Wednesday everyone

As always, to be continued..................

PRAYERS SENT FROM CANADA

Just a quick note to let you all know that I am praying today for the family of WWE star Chris Benoit.

The events of the last few days have been so tragic and I fear we will never know what caused this man to harm his family before killing himself. I can't even begin to imagine what happened to push him over the edge and I really hope that poor young boy and his Mom didn't suffer too much in the end.

My prayers go out tonight to the families of Chris Benoit and his wife. I pray that they all find peace and answers in this terrible time of grief and sadness. Hopefully the press will leave them alone and let them grieve in private.

God bless that Mother and her son...at least they are in heaven together....

As always, to be continued..................

WARNING...BEWARE OF THIS SCAM

This is a warning to all of my blogger buddies out there,

I received an email from a trusted friend warning me about this scam that is happening all over the place right now. I felt it was serious enough that I should sent the warning along here to get the word out. Please be careful and take heed. These scoundrels are ruthless it seems and I would not want any of you to fall victim to someone so vicious. Please read the following:

There is a slick routine aimed at stealing from unwary persons. They say that the gang usually comprises three or four members. While the three younger ones, all appearing to be cute and innocent, divert their "mark" (or intended target) with a show of friendliness and fun, the fourth, the eldest of this gang of criminals, sneaks in from behind the person's back to expertly rifle undetected through pockets and bags for any valuables being carried. The attached picture taken from CTV operating in the inner city shows the Gang in operation. Scroll down.
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HAHAHAHAHA GOTCHAAAAAAAA...
thought we could all use a funny today...did I mention I am a bit of a smartass??? lmao.
Have a great Monday all....

As always, to be continued.........................

PRAYERS FOR NYC WATCHDOG

I must begin this post with an apology. I know a lot of my posts lately have been heavy or "venting" as opposed to being light hearted or whitty. I was determined to find something whimsical to post about this weekend but as is so often the case, fate has intervened and set my thoughts on a different path.
Today I was blogging to entertain myself as I do almost daily (like any good little blog addict does..lmao). I had a new visitor on my post from yesterday and right away flew to his blog to check it out with the excitement of a kid on xmas eve. His name is palmsprings savant and I liked what I have read so far. He had an interesting post today entitled "Ways to Make the World A Better Place". It was a very good read and got me thinking about some of things he said.
I have always believed that what goes around comes around and karma can be a real bitch. One of the things that allowed me to recover from the hell I suffered as a young girl was that no matter how I felt about my father, he WILL get what is coming to him because God knows what he did to me...and he WILL make that bastard answer when his day comes. Coming to that realization allowed me to let alot of my anger and hatred go and that was oddly enlightening and freeing.
I have also tried to live my life feeling that you should treat others the way you want them to treat you....and that you should always remind those in your life every single day that you love them...and how much they mean to you. Palmspring's post got me thinking again about what an important thing that is...3 simple words that can make such a difference in someone's life....
Well this post was still in my mind as I started going through my list of blog links I visit daily and I came across something so tragic I am still crying just thinking about it. It seems that something really terrible has happened and word is spreading around the blog world. There is a man called NewYorkCity's watchdog. (If you go to the link on my blog -boobs,injuries and dr pepper you can get to NYC's blog.) Anyway, this man has a 5 year son who was involved in an accident in a swimming pool yesterday and lost his life. As a parent, I can not even begin to imagine what he and his family are going through. I have always said that no parent should ever out live their child and to lose one so young...again it is just so tragic. I wanted to at least mention this and pass the word. I do not know this man but I still felt I needed to leave a message of condolence on his blog and I encourage anyone reading this to do the same.
I guess my message is a simple one...love with everything you have in your heart. I am the first one to admit that I am FAR from a perfect parent. I yell too much and do not have enough patience. I bitch and complain about my gremlins way too much but I also NEVER EVER let them leave my sight without telling them I love them. This has always been important to me, to say those words to them with as much frequency as possible and more importantly to mean them. Ever since they were baby gremlins, I have always told them that even when I am so mad at them I can't even see straight, I will always love them no matter what!! My love for them has no boundaries and no end....it will endure forever. If anything were to ever happen to one of them, I honestly can't imagine going on..I would want to go with them.....I am also blessed enough to have a gnome I love to no end...he truly is a gift from God and he completes me in ways I never thought possible.
One last blessing I want to mention is all the online friends that have become so very important to me. They have supported me in ways that mean so much and gotten me through some truly dark times in my life. Please never forget how much y'all mean to me and that you are honestly and deeply loved by me.
One thing I would suggest that y'all think about is this....one of the things that I would think would be very sad is if something were to happen to you and you hadn't thought ahead of time to set up a system to inform your online friends. It might seem silly but honestly..if something were to happen to a friend of mine ,whether that friend lives next door to me or is someone I have only talked to online, I would still want to know. I have met some amazing and remarkable people over the years that I have been online and have grown to love them in ways I never thought I would. If one of them were to just suddenly disappear never to be heard from again, that would be awful....not knowing is the worse thing sometimes...
Because of this, I have instructed my gnome that if anything were to happen to me, he knows who to inform online to spread the word. I wonder if maybe some of you would think about making such arrangements also...just a thought anyway.
Please pray for the father and family of puppy monster. That dear sweet boy is in heaven now and isn't suffering...but his family surely needs all the prayers they can get right now. And know you are loved...you are special..don't ever forget that.....

As always, to be continued......................

T.G.I.F.

Man oh man I am soooooo glad it is Friday. I have worked a few extra hours this week, and although it hasn't been that much more I feel like I am hung over (without the fun of getting drunk..lol).

I am sitting at my desk enjoying the last little bit of freedom before the HELL of summer vacation begins. My oldest gremlin has been finished school for a few days, but the youngest one has to go until next Tuesday. I don't get time alone with #1 too often and I have to admit it has been pretty nice. When #2 isn't around to irritate her, she is a pretty nice gremlin to have around. She is even somewhat co operative about helping with housework (as long as I bribe her with computer time..lmao).

I was sitting here wondering what I wanted to post about so I was reading a few blogs. I stumbled across a new blog that I was enjoying immensely. Actually, IT found me because the author checked out my blog . She commented on a post of mine, so I went to check her out(as the good little blog addict I am..lol).

While reading her blog, she was talking about 2 new kittens her family has adopted from the SPCA. It got me chuckling and thinking about how we came to have our cat. Her family already has a cat that isn't happy about the 2 new additions and that reminded me of the following story:

In the early months of 1990, I was living alone with a cat named Bandit. I loved this animal with all my heart. I was very lonely at the time still trying to deal with , and overcome, the hell I had survived as a teenager. Bandit was my best friend and confident. At night, when I had such terrible flashbacks and nightmares, she would snuggle close, lay by my head and purr like crazy to calm and soothe me until I fell back to sleep. After I came home from a long day at work, she was always there to welcome and love me.
Anyway, on one cold day, I happened to be going out for food. When I walked out of my apartment building, there were these 2 little bundles of fur laying in a snowbank trying to get down and meowing like crazy. I asked some kids playing close by if they owned them, but no one knew where they belonged.
Being the softy I am, I grabbed both kittens and took them inside. I had NO desire for another cat so I didn't know what to do with them. I called my best friend and she came right over. We both fell in love immediately, so she took the male and I , the female. The next day when we took them to the vet, it turns out they had been beaten.
Anyway, I loved her from the start and called her Boots. Unfortunately, it was NOT love at first sight for Bandit. She was mean and nasty to this little bundle. She would hiss and swat whenever she got the chance, and would pounce if Boots came within 10 feet of her. I laugh at this now, but I was really worried. I would have to lock Boots in the bathroom while I went to work, because I honestly thought Bandit might kill her.
As time went on, things settled down and Bandit decided to make friends. They became good company for each other and Bandit even learned to share the bed with Boots. The three of us were the 3 mouseketeers (forgive the bad pun) and we all loved each other greatly.
As life took it's twists and turns,things changed...I met AND married the BIGGEST LOSER to ever walk the face of the earth...had 2 gremlins.. thank GOD got rid of the FHL (fuckhead loser, yes the name fits but that is another post..lol). Through it all, my 2 dear cats travelled the road of life with us. They even grew to love the gremlins, although they weren't too impressed with them when they were babies...lol.
When I met and started to date the gnome, I was worried about what the gremlins would think of him. It has just been us against the world for 8 yrs and I didn't know how they would adjust. Shortly after we started to date, I invited the gnome over to my house. If the gremlins were gonna hate him, I wanted to know before things went any further. At this point, I will mention that whenever someone comes to our home, Boots runs and hides so no one ever sees her. She still does that to this very day(I think because of the abuse she suffered before we found her). She is very shy and will NOT come out til the person has left. Anyway, that first night, the gnome walks in and I introduce him to the gremlins. They are both quiet and shy, so I send them up to their rooms to watch some TV. I invite the gnome to come sit down. He walks in, sits down on the couch and I will NEVER forget what happened next....there he sits on the couch and Boots comes out from under a chair, hops up on the couch,lays down on the gnome's lap and starts to purr as soon as he pets her. I was like OMFG I can't believe it. It was at this moment that I knew the gnome was a keeper...he had the "boots stamp of approval"..lol.
A few years later, Bandit became very ill and I knew she wouldn't be with us much longer. It was a dark day for our family when I took her to the vet. It didn't take much to confirm she had developed diabetes and her kidneys were failing. There were some heroic measures that could have been taken, but they would have been painful with no guarantees of success. Bandit was 17 at the time, so we decided it was best to end her suffering. The next morning we all said good bye and the gnome and I took her to be put down. This was one of the hardest things I had ever had to do so the gnome offered to do it for me. I knew that I had to be the one. That cat had loved and comforted me when I was alone in the world fighting my demons, so she deserved my support now. I held her as the vet went about his task and I held her in my arms as she passed away. I am glad now that I could be there at the end. The following few days were hard ones for the entire family, including Boots. The poor thing sat by the front door meowing in a way that sounded like a baby crying. It was DAYS before she would eat, to the point that I thought I might lose her too, due to her obvious sadness. Thankfully, she came around.
It is funny how things turn out sometimes. Bandit hated Boots when she came to us, and Boots mourned the loss of Bandit as much as the rest of us. To this day, if you ask my gremlins where we got our cats from they will tell you what I always told them ......We got Bandit from the store because Mommy needed someone to love her but God sent Boots to us because HE knew Boots needed US to love her...

have a great Friday all and a blessed weekend...

As always, to be contined....................

LIFE IS BORING

Nothing new to report today,life is boring. I cut our lawn today. It was the first time I have ever done it and I rather enjoyed doing it. I think that will change with time but it is nice to look out the window and know that I did it..lol. Today was definitely cooler than yesterday,of which I was grateful.

Today I find myself missing my river a lot. It is the St Lawrence River and I grew up on it. I still call myself a river rat because I grew up walking by this river, camping on the islands of this river and swimming in the river.

It is,without a doubt ,my favourite place in the world to go. When my life was a living hell as a teenager, the river was where I often ran to hide and clear my thoughts. When things get to be too much....no matter how bad life gets...this river always seems to calm me with it's beauty and gentleness.

This river means so much to me that I shared it with the gnome on our 1st date. I explained how much that river means to me. So when he decided he was ready to propose, he took me down to my river . It was one of the most magical moments of my life. Sometimes that gnome makes me soooooo crazy but I will never forget that he took the time to make that evening special for me. It wasn't flashy, just simple and filled with love.

I will try to remember to take my digital camera and take some pics to post the next time I go to the river. If I can figure out how to do it...lmaooooo.

As always , to be continued..............

P.S. after I finished this post, I googled a pic of my river. These are some of the 1000 Islands and a bridge close to my hometown that leads to NY state. Hope you like it as much as I do.

HELL HAS MOVED TO CANADA

Just a quick note to say hi as I sit here and melt. It has been soooooo hot here today I haven't had the energy to even think about blogging (or doing anything else for that matter....lol). My poor ol cat has laid around today, looking at me like I threw her in the oven and forgot to leave the door open..lol. I have felt so bad for her today and at one point , I seriously considered giving her a bath. My only concern was that I might also give her a heart attack while doing so....lol.

I have to say y'all should be very proud of me today. Because of my job, and the need for quiet while I am working, we have been forced to buy a lawn mower so we can start to cut our own lawn. We rent our house and to this point, the grounds keeper has been doing it but he refuses to stick to a schedule and shows up whenever the mood strikes him. At first we didn't mind this. But now he shows up when I am trying to work, making a lot of racket and this causes problems with my job.......sorry I am babbling again *smacks myself upside the head*

Anyway, we went out Sunday and bought ourselves a new lawn mower. We thought about buying a used one but we were worried we might get one that wouldn't last long so we invested in a black & decker. Wouldn't ya know it...it was "some assembly required". Now I love my gnome with all my heart, but he is surely useless when it comes to things like this. Today I was determined to get that sucker put together if it killed me so away I went. For the most part, I have to admit it was pretty easy. The only problem I encountered was not having the proper wrench to tighten the wheels. That problem has since been remedied. I can't wait to get out there tomorrow and mow the lawn..lmao. If I can just accomplish that without running over my foot, I will be pretty happy...lmao. I will be sure to let y'all know.

As always, to be continued....................

WHERE WERE YOU WHEN......

I saw this on a blog a week or so ago. I found it interesting and thought provoking so I decided to "borrow" it (with a few modifications)....the idea is to answer the question "where were you when......."

Space Shuttle Challenger explodes Jan 28/86 : When this happened, I was attending university. A fellow student came running into the lobby to let us all know what had happened and I thought he was losing it. I headed home and turned on the TV. There were the images that I will never forget. I spent the next several days crying and watching the coverage, hoping against hope that somehow the crew would be found alive. Even though I knew there was no way it would happen, I wasn't ready to accept their fate.

Oklahoma City Bombing,April 19,1995 : I was home tending to the gremlins who were 2 1/2 yrs and 7 months old at the time. I had just fed them and was going to put on gremlin #1's favourtie movie (Beauty and the Beast..I can still sing most of the songs from that dumb movie..lmao). The news flash came on and I was stunned and frozen in place. I am grateful my gremlins were young enough that they didn't understand what was unfolding, not that I understood it either. To this day, I still can't see Garth Brook's video without crying.

Death of Princess Diana, Aug 31, 1997 : I had gotten the gremlins to sleep and was relaxing watching TV because it was too hot to sleep. Shortly before midnight (est) the news came on TV of the crash. Immediately, I started to cry while praying that she would be OK. As soon as they started showing pics of her car, I knew it wasn't good. It was shortly after that they announced her death. The next days were dark ones filled with tears and prayers. Watching her funeral was so very hard, but I couldn't seem to help myself.

Columbine shooting April 20/99 : This day is as clear in my mind as if it was yesterday. It was unseasonably warm in my neck of the woods. I had my windows open, enjoying the 1st breathe of fresh spring air, and all was right in my world. I was putting together a new desk I had bought when the first news flash came on. I was glued to the TV the rest of the day hoping and praying that no one would die. I kept hugging my gremlins, praying that they would never know such fear and danger in their life. To this day, I still find myself thinking of that place I had never heard of before...and I still can't help but wonder why....

9/11 Attacks, Sept 11/01 : This, by far is the worst of all these events for me. It was a beautiful fall day and I was enjoying the sun as I walked home, after taking the gremlins to school. A neighbour came out to walk her dog and told me a plane had hit the WTC. I thought she was mistaken (mostly because she is one pickle short of a full jar..lmao). I strolled home and turned on the TV in time to see the terrible events of that awful day unfold. I called my sister and told her what was going on. I was one of the few times I heard her crying over something on the TV. I am the crier not her. I was glued to the TV until the kids came home but of course I wouldn't let them watch any TV for fear they might see those terrible images. Seeing those buildings fall was so ominious I could barely breathe just watching it all...listening to survivor stories just made me want to run there and hug them all.

These are a few of the moments in time that I feel have helped define and shape our recent past. The thing that strikes me the most about these 5 events was remembering how I felt right before I got the tragic news. The sun on my face... the feeling of contentment...then BAM the world turned upside down. During each of these 5 periods in time, I cried many tears and prayed for those affected or killed.

I invite anyone reading this to share your thoughts about "where were you when...."It doesn't have to be these 5 moments in time...it can be any event you feel is note worthy. If you decide to post about this, please let me know because I would LOVE to read your thoughts. Thanks for taking the time to read mine.......

As always, to be continued............

HAPPY FATHERS DAY

You are our knight in shining armor,
Pilgrim of our plea,
The Atlas for our wounded world,
Our rescuer at sea.
You are the pillar of our hopes,
The deep bass of our song,
The strength that underlies our strength,
The calm for which we long.
You came into our house of dreams
And turned it into truth,
Entering at just the point
Where yearning shatters youth.
What could motivate someone
To bear another's load
But that most beautiful of lights,
The inner lamp of love.


I found this poem today and it touched me, so I decided to share it here. Today is always a day that brings back a lot of thoughts and memories (mostly bad ones to be honest).

I grew up with a father that I lived in mortal fear of...and for a good part of my life I have hated that man. I was determined to not make the same mistakes my mother did....because I would rather be alone than live my life like that ever again!!! Along the path, I lost my way and in my desperation and loneliness allowed myself to repeat a part of my mothers history. In so doing, I managed to marry an even bigger jackass than she did (well maybe not quite but surely he is a close second).

After finally coming to my senses, I was a single mom of my 2 gremlins for over 8 years. Then I was lucky enough to find a gnome to share my life with. I would be lying if I said it has always been smooth sailing but he is worth every bump and twist in the road. I never thought I would find someone who would be my partner...who would take on 2 gremlins that both have a learning disability and can TOTALLY make you want to rip your teeth out without drugs because surely it MUST be less painful than dealing with a teenage gnome with PMS...lmao.

So this post is dedicated to my gnome. I know at times you must want to strangle one (or more) of us . I thank God every day for bringing you into our lives......for giving our gremlins the father that they needed...one they can love...one they can rely on...and one they can trust not to break their hearts or let them down when it really counts.

You are a gift to us , my dear Gnome. Don't ever think I will forget that fact, because I won't (even when I DO wanna knock the snot outta you and hide the body.....hee hee).

Hope all the fathers out there have a great day!!!!

As always, to be continued............

USELESS BABBLE ABOUT ME

This was something that was emailed to me by our good buddy Burfica and I thought I would do it here instead of emailing it back to her...it has been a longggggggg crappy day full of bad news(but that is another post that I don't have the strength for). I thought this might be a welcome distraction...hopefully it won't sound too dorky...roflmao.....


1. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? my first name no, My middle name was my great grandmother's name. I am a twin and I think they picked my 1st name to sound similar to my twin's name.
2. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?this afternoon...was just one of those bad days that made me wonder why I even got out of bed...but again that is another post..lmao.
3. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? I guess it is ok...but I don't have the patience to make it look pretty and I certainly prefer to type .
4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? it might sound odd but I really like Macaroni and Cheese Loaf...of course , it is really bad for sugars and cholesterol...but I treat myself every now and again..hee hee
5. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 2 gremlins and 1 puss that I love as if she was my baby. I have learned gremlins can be controlled as long as you don't feed them after midnight...because if ya do they turn into creatures that ya don't even wanna think about...roflmao.
6. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? well I would like to think so...I try to be a loving and supportive friend but I also know sometimes I can be a PITA..lol
7. DO YOU USE SARCASM ALOT?? well gosh...anyone who has teenage gremlins and DOESN'T use sarcasm must be on some powerful drugs and best share them with me..hee hee
8. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS?yuppers.
9. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? not for all the tea in China..lol.
10. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? not a big cereal eater at all..can't even remember last time I had a bowl...if I had to chose I would pick frosted flakes...not really a good choice for a diabetic eh? LOL
11. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? not if I can help it...I am lazy about that....mostly wear slip-ons anyway.
12. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? not sure, I would like to think I am after all I have survived in my life but I can't say that I feel strong.
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? either heavenly hash or maple walnut...love them both.
14. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? I would have to say their smile and how friendly they are...of course one of the first things I noticed about the gnome was his butt..after the years we have been together I still smile when I see that butt walking along in front of me and I grab it as much as I can...hee hee hee.
15. RED OR PINK?pink for sure. prefer soft baby pink the best.
16. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? there are a LOT of things I dislike about myself...I guess the top of the list would be my lack of patience (especially with the gremlins and the gnome..don't know why they put up with me at times but glad they do.)
17. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? the person that I miss most that is still alive is my Mom..moving to another town away from her was the hardest thing I have ever had to do because we used to see her every day. The person I miss the most that has passed is my Grannie. She was a very special lady and I didn't really appreciate that until the last year of her life...I miss her dearly and look forward to seeing her when it is my time to pass...(if they let me in..lmao).
18. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU??nope but if anyone decides to post this on their blog please let me know so I can check it out.
19. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES ARE YOU WEARING? not wearing pants OR shoes right now...wearing blue shorts as it is hotter than HELL tonight again. (one of the few perks of working at home...can go to work barefoot without even a bra on...hee hee )
20. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?? a bowl of veggies
21. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TOO RIGHT NOW?? myself typing and the fan whirling.
22. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?sky blue or lavender.
23. FAVORITE SMELLS?my gnome and fresh cut grass.oh yeah and BBQ too.
24. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? well since I talk on the phone for a living and I just finished work I guess I don't know who it was..lol.
25. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT THIS TO YOU??of course, or I would have deleted it.( I agree with fica on this one)
26. FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH?? winter - figure skating, summer-gymnastics
27. HAIR COLOR??brown with some gray strands (getting more every day too...keep telling the gremlins that they are causing them)
28. EYE COLOR??blue-green
29. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?nope
30. FAVORITE FOOD?bbq chicken, chinese, or pizza
31. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS?? definitely happy ending please
32. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?Star Trek 5
33. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING?red
34. SUMMER OR WINTER? anyone wh0 has ever lived through a Canadian winter would not even ask me this..lmao.
35. HUGS OR KISSES??what good is one without the other? LOL
36. FAVORITE DESSERT? pumpkin pie with ice cream
37. MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND?no one since I only blogged it
38 LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? see #37
39. WHAT ARE YOU READING NOW??duh this questionaire. seriously, a book by Danielle Steele called Coming Out ..I loveeee her books.
40. WHAT IS ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?other than my mouse?? the Dell logo as our computer is a Dell.
41. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON T.V. LAST NIGHT??nothing because I worked all night then went to bed.
42. FAVORITE SOUND??the gnome or gremlins giggling while I tickle them or my kitty purring..nothing else like it in the world.
43. ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? not sure...beatles I guess.
44. WHAT IS THE FARTHEST YOU HAVE BEEN FROM HOME??Washington D.C. a longgg time ago.
45. DO YOU HAVE SPECIAL TALENTS?? I plead the 5th on this one.
46. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?Ontario, Canada
47. WHOSE ANSWERS ARE YOU LOOKING FORWARD TO GETTING BACK??forget this question...doesn't apply to this now.
48. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE CHARTOON CHARACTER??Bugs Bunny.

Hope I didn't shock or bore anyone with this. Have a great night.

As always, to be continued.........

A QUICK UPDATE

Just wanted to pop on quickly and give a big thank you to all for the advice and well wishes over the last week. It has been a long few weeks feeling so blucky from these meds and I have appreciated the support and good thoughts I have received.

I am still not feeling that great but the doc did say it might be a few days before the meds were out of my system. I know I am feeling badly when I have a nap on badge day..lmao (ask burfica for explanation about that...hee hee).

Anyway, I will be back to my snarky PITA self soon enough. That is if I don't melt from all this heat..lmao.
Lots of love and prayers to you all.

As always, to be continued.........

DOCTOR'S VISIT

Today was FINALLY the day.....I was so relieved to see it finally come, I just about cried this morning. I have really been struggling health wise for the last month. As I have mentioned before, I was diagnosed last October with type 2 diabetes. It wasn't a huge shock because both of my creators (aka Mom and her asshole..lol) and my brother all have it, along with some other relatives on both sides of my family. I had hoped that it would come later in life, but guess it sucks to be me!!!

Anyway, the doctor took caution and started me on meds immediately but began with a small dose. Last month, my sugars were still not anywhere near under control so doc decided to get aggressive and upped my dosage from 2 pills a day to 5 a day . This is causing some problems with my bowls but nothing I can't suck up and handle. Doc also decided to put me on a pill called an ace inhibitor. This pill was supposed to prevent high blood pressure and protect my kidneys. I am told kidney failure is another biggie for us with "extra sweet" blood..

Well ,let me tell you, I can not remember the last time I have felt so crappy for so long...oh wait...YES I sure as hell can...last time I felt this worn out and tired and nauseous and head-achey was when I was pregnant with the gremlins...at least those two periods in my life produced two beautiful ,lovely children (that have since gone on to torment and torture my mind...but I digress, that is surely another post in itself...lol).

So I went to see the doctor today, armed and ready to do battle. Now I should mention that I do love this doctor. He has been the doc for me and my gremlins since they were born and he has ALWAYS taken great care of me. So much so that even after we moved last year, I chose to drive the hour to see him because in my mind, he is worth it. Both my female creator and the gnome reminded me of that fact, so I wouldn't lose my temper with him today, and I did actually stay calm.

I am happy and grateful to say that after I explained how bad it has been, the doc told me to stop the BP meds immediately. I was so happy to hear that I just about kissed him...roflmao. I think the gnome is relieved too because he has been worrying about me AND having to listen to me bitch and complain about taking the dumb pill..lmao.

So hopefully, after a few days, the meds will be out of my system and I can get feeling better and back on track...wooooooooooohoooooooo

And a BIGGGGGG welcome back to burfica and hammer...I missed both of your posts very much!!!!!

As always, to be continued..............

DON'T QUIT

I received this poem from a friend the other day, and I thought it was nice enough that I would share it. Many years ago, when I suffered from depression, a very special man gave me some good advice. One of the things he used to say to me was to "get through today and worry about tomorrow when it comes" ...and honestly no truer words have been spoken. It may sound simplistic but these words have kept me going when I thought my life was over, and I didn't know where I would find the strength to carry on. Hope you like this poem as much as I did ......


Don't Quit

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road your trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest if you must, but don't quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far;
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit.
It's when things seem worse that you must not quit.

have a great weekend all....

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WHEN YOU GET OLD

Just before the funeral services, the undertaker came up to the very elderly widow and asked, "How old was your husband?" "98," she replied. "Two years older than me."
"So you're 96," the undertaker commented. She responded, "Hardly worth going home, is it?

Reporters interviewing a 104-year-old woman: "And what do you think is the best thing about being 104?" the reporter asked. She simply replied, "No peer pressure."
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For some reason lately, my thoughts have been with my Mom,who I miss greatly. I think I have mentioned before that last summer we moved away from the city I have lived in all my life, due to my husbands job. It was not an easy decision to make, mostly because of my Mom, but I knew it was the right thing to do for my family, and more importantly for my husband. He had been commuting, driving an hour each way, for almost 5 years, and it was starting to seriously affect his health (not to mention the price of gas killing us too..lmao).

When I get feeling blue, missing my Mom (as I am right now)....it reminds me how odd life's twists and turns can be. When I was young, for a long time I truly hated my Mom. I felt like she could have protected me if she has just USED her brain and tried...but instead she chose to be clueless and turn a blind eye. It took a LONG time for me to forgive her..because even when I told her what happened to me, she chose to stay with him....which to me as a Mom now would be unthinkable. She had a good job and all of my siblings had already moved out on their own, so she could have escaped with me and protected me from "the devil"'s wrath but took the coward's way out and stayed.

I was raised my a Mom that I have always referred to as "slap happy"...when she felt I did something wrong, she would hit first and ask questions later...

All that being said, I will again state that I love my mother completely and unconditionally. I am so glad that I managed to find the forgiveness in my heart that allows me to truly love her, appreciate her and miss her so terribly. The real turning point in our relationship was when I got brave enough to be able to tell her "Mom you ARE being a butthead so cut it the hell out!!!" That seemed to change our relationship from mom-daughter to more like mom-adult.

She is 71 now and is a diabetic that has had a heart attack a few years back, so I do know that we have reached that point in our lives where her time on earth could be dwindling. I won't let myself dwell on that, it just serves to remind me to appreciate every hug,kiss,conversation I have with her because they are priceless. As I said, it makes me shake my head to think about how I have gone from hating her with everything I had in me...to loving her more than I ever thought I could...and I could not imagine my life without her... hope my gremlins feel the same way when my time comes...

As always, to be continued..........

TEENAGERS ARE ALIENS!!!

Ok someone pleaseeeeee tell me...is it me or are teenagers sent from another planet to take over the earth by driving adults insane, one parent at a time??? I guess it makes me a bad mother to state...but it IS the God's honest truth that somedays I get my 2 gremlins to bed and I wonder how I got through the day without killing them both and hiding the bodies. ..lol.

As is the case when dealing with any creature...both of my gremlins present their own unique and frustrating ways of getting on my nerves. As I have mentioned more than once, my youngest gremlin has severe ADHD which has made him a real challenge at the best of times. At this point, I will mention that I love that boy with all the love in my heart and then some!! Like every Momma Bear, there is nothing I wouldn't do for that "cub" and I would die for him without even blinking.

That being said...that boy could surely drive me to drink at times. Today was a perfect example...yesterday he was riding his bike and kept riding unsafely up the middle of a very busy road. After a warning from the gnome, his bike was taken and he was told that it would not be returned for at least a week (maybe longer I am thinking). Anyway today he flies in the door after school and asks (without even a hello) if he can go out and ride his bike....I was like whatttttttttt?? LOL.

He then proceeds to stomp and huff and grump like I have just shot his dog which of course just made me want to strangle the life out of him right there..lmao. No worries though...the lil bugger is still breathing and ready to torment me another day...lol.

And then there is my oldest gremlin. I swear I do not even know where to begin with that dear angel. She is 15 and I honestly do remember that it isn't an easy age by any means. But this gremlin of mine feels she has to lie to me (mostly about stupid things) and this really makes me feel hurt and discouraged. I try to make her understand that if she lies to me about little things, how am I supposed to believe her when she says she isn't doing drugs or drinking??? The dumbest part about this all is that often it is over something stupid and I am only mad about the lie, not the offense itself.

It makes me feel bad because I know at least part of it is that she doesn't feel like she can trust me to "keep my cool". I know I have been way too harsh with both gremlins in the past. But I can't undo the past....all I can do it try to do better and hope that somehow I break through and teach her that lying her way through life is NOT the way to live. The problem is that I can't figure out how the hell to do that...makes me just wanna scream sometimes.

Anyway, as I always remind them...even when I am so mad I wanna strangle the life outta them...I still love them without condition or question....and I always will... good thing my love for them is as natural as breathing or they would really be up the creek without a paddle...lmaoooooo.

As always , to be continued..........

WHAT A WEEKEND

It was a nice weekend here for the most part but busyyyyyyyyyy. My 2 gremlins were gone for the weekend with their loser good-for-nothing idiot father so the gnome and I had some alone time. Not that I don't LOVE being alone with the gnome,because I do, but it is hard to relax and enjoy myself when I am worrying the whole time if my babies are ok...if he is hurting them...will this be the time he looses it and does serious damage. Anyway that is another rant..lol.

We tried to make good use of our time. The Gnome is really good at understanding when I need distraction so we had a weekend full of "playing". I managed to re-injure my hernia on Friday so that limited what we could do, but we managed to sneak in some activities (and a bit of adult "fun" too)..lmao.

On Saturday,we decided to go out to dinner and a movie. Dinner was ok, nothing to write home about. Then we went to see a new movie called Georgia Rule. The gnome knew I really wanted to go see it, so he humoured me. The trailors all made it look like a comedy to me but it was FAR from funny. I was stunned at the story line of the movie but I still enjoyed it.

Sunday we went to the local casino for their sunday brunch and of course , we had to stop and check out the slots!! We haven't been to the casino in months. Our rule is that we only take $20 to share, once that is gone, so are we. We only play the nickel slots so that keeps us going for a little while. Safe to say, we made away with our $20 back and $1.65 profit. Wooooooohoooooooo last of the big time spenders eh?? lol.

Well, the gremlins made it home safely thank god. They were only home an hour and the youngest was being a shithead as always. Nice to know some things never change..lmao.

As always, to be continued......